Posts tagged ‘future’
I was laying in bed unable to close my eyelids. I was thinking about my week and mostly the people in my life. I paused a gave some people more though than others, when it hit me…what if they are thinking about me?
Have I made such an impact on anyone to keep them awake?
I’m I in someone’s thoughts right off their sleep tooth and nail with what they want me to be or with what I am?
I wish I…
- could read minds
- predict with weather accurately
- would not freak out at the sight of blood
- was more honest
- was less messy
- had more time to read
- could trust in another
- could let go
- didn’t over think everything
- was a slower driver
- had a healthier stomach
- didn’t have bills
- had more hours in the day
- only had good dreams
- was a human lie detector
- could live with less sleep
- could better express myself
- was a professional photographer
- was a professional dancer
- was done with my homework
You know we all have friends that we can’t give up on that we need to hold on to even though holding on is tough.
I hold on even though I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. Some people you have a feeling will bring you pain even though they have brought you happiness. Almost like an attempt at keeping a balance.
When you have a friend that helped you though a tough time but is continually letting you down at what point do you let it go? At what time do you beginning managing your friendships?
You never really understand how much you mean to someone but maybe it is our job to try and help them understand what they mean to us. Levels of friendships are difficult things but the important ones are worth wading through awkward wording to let them know.
Maybe it isn’t so much letting go as fading out. Not fighting to hold on to what you want to be there but allowing yourself to see what is really there.
I’ve always heard that relationships are work but are they really? When do they stop being fun and start requiring work?
Maybe I should not say “stop being fun,” but when do you have to start making a serious enough effort to start calling it work?
What is the point of being in a relationship?
I ask myself this question rather frequently now that I am in a relationship and going to move out of state while the significant other stays here. I ask myself this when I am alone. But I am happy when I am with him. Maybe I am just still very unsure of myself because of past experiences in relationships. I don’t know why I am so worried about it this all should be easy.
Ladies say that men are pigs and just want that one thing but why is this one so different. This relationship has near no physical contact and as a 21 year old on my own, independent female I feel this is odd. Can a relationship go too slow?
Maybe I just need more contact but if I want this to work after I leave I am going to need to deal with limited contact.
When I’m not in a relationship I am very independent but once I get in a relationship a develop a neediness and I am unsure if that is so wrong yet in never seems to have a place to fit in.
Now I stand tall with my confidence by my side
tomorrow I might stand without as he stands before me