A Strong Fear of Tears
It has occurred to me that for the first time since I was a freshmen a boy has the ability to make me nervous. In every relationship I have placed myself in since I was a freshmen was one in which I could remove my emotions from the relationship.
I’m nervous where I should be bold.
It is a horrible cycle. I’m nervous because I’m not removed from the situation. I then fear because of my nervous actions.
I feel like I am, or rather, I feel like I know so little about him, yet like a typical girl I feel like I know who he is.
Will this nervousness put me at a disadvantage to being my true self?