Hold my Hand

You and my time just don’t mix…

Love and Forget

Love the people that treat you right, and forget about the ones who don’t believe in you.

I’ll Rock Your Socks Off

So, here’s how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that’s playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don’t lie and try to pretend your cool…

1.Opening Credits: Livin’ on the Edge-Aerosmith
2.Waking Up: (I hate) Everything About You – Three Days Grace (hahahahahaha)
3.First day of School: Gone Till November-Wyclef

4.Falling in Loving: Be My Escape – Relient K

5.Fight Song: Just Dance – Lady GaGa (hahaha)

6.Breaking Up: Shut up and Drive – Rihanna (this is priceless)

7.Prom: Child of Dust – Thrice (hmm)

8.Life: Warmer Climate – snow patrol (ehh)

9.Mental Breakdown: Kill Me Quickly – Thirce (this is really working out)

10.Driving: Look what you have done – Jet (don’t know how I feel about that)

11.Flashback: Wild thing – Jimi Hendrix (this is CRAZY funny)

12.Wedding: 1985 – Bowling for Soup (only proof that you should clean out your itunes before playing this game)

14.Final Battle: Red Blooded Woman – Kylie Minogue

15.Death Scene: the One that you hated – early November (well that makes me sad)

16.Funeral Song: Stranded – Man Overboard – Blink 182

17.End Credit: Rock This Town – Brantley Gilbert (way to end on country)

A is for Apple

Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real … nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can’t use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name? Audrey
2. A four-letter word: arch
3. A boy’s name: Avery
4. A girl’s name: Alice
5. An occupation: artist
6. A color: aqua
7. Something you wear: armband
8. A food: artichoke
9. Something found in the bathroom: advil
10. A place: Antarctica
11. A reason for being late: accident
12. Something you shout: Anyone Home?
13. A restaurant: Apple Bee’s
14. Something that describes you: active
15. Favorite Music Artist: Augustana
16. An animal: aardvark
17. A street name: Atlanta St
18. A type of car: Altama
19. A game you played as a child: “a my name is..”
20. A verb: attack

a few keepers

I’d rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I’m not.
Kurt Cobain

Give it all you’ve got because you never know if there’s going to be a next time.
Danielle Ingrum

I do not have superior intelligence or faultless looks. I do not captivate a room or run a mile under six minutes. I only succeeded because I was still working after everyone else went to sleep.
Greg Evans

High School is like a spork: it’s a crappy spoon and a crappy fork, so in the end it’s just plain useless.
John Mayer

Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty, or good, or well bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves.
Henri Frederic Amiel

acting my age

1. I’m single.
2. I’m okay.
3. I’m proud.
4. I’m not an open book.
5. I’m loud.
6. I’m a liar.
7. I’m honest.
8. I’m not trusting.
9. I’m skeptical of most things.
10. I’m not a morning person.
11. I’m a dancer though and though.
12. I’m dependable.
13. I’m fair.
14. I’m better at acting that you would expect.
15. I’m a traveler by nature.
16. I’m a college senior.
17. I’m a good student.
18. I’m an outside person.
19. I’m not a singer.
20. I’m observant.
21. I’m not one to talk about how I feel.
22. I’m always making an effort to appear happy.
23. I’m horrible with technology.
24. I’m a photographer in my own mind.
25. I’m waiting for something to happen.
26. I’m not a t.v. watcher.
27. I’m a movie addict.
28. I’m a milk drinker.
29. I’m a horseback rider.
30. I’m in love with my blackberry.
31. I’m on flickr.
32. I’m still a roller skater.
33. I’m not easily embarrassed.
34. I’m a blogger.
35. I’m twenty-one.
36. I’m fascinated with textures.
37. I’m taking yoga classes.
38. I’m bad at accounting.
39. I’m attracted to plaid underwear.
40. I’m messy.
41. I’m stuck on biscuits.
42. I’m reading a horrible novel.
43. I’m incapable of stopping in the middle of a movie or book.
44. I’m a cat person.
45. I’m enthusiastic by nature.
46. I’m grossed out by feet.
47. I’m not very good at the whole make-up concept.
48. I’m barefoot whenever possible.
49. I’m always thirsty.
50. I’m constantly looking for something I lost.

Government more or less?

In so many books and movies there is the common theme of living without government rule. Whether the characters are dropped on an abandoned island or government is over thrown for whatever reason the people/citizens are left to their own rule. In all these story cases the people revert to their primal “instincts” so to speak and go to fighting each other.

Why are we supposed to be lead to believe that without government we would go all willy nilly. Hmm maybe we would, but government but be formed it doesn’t just happen so what about the stories of development?

With the stories about how we would hold ourselves as people seems to hold a good amount of truth to them, which is depressing that we need a chain of command to behave civilized.

typing l o v e

It is thoughts of love that turn my eyelids into rebells tonight. There are so may types or love and then there are so many ways to express love.

I worry about which type of love I’m going to get because I want the team spirit type. That unites us in all our goals and endeavors and is “pure” without nasty secretive motives but what will I get? Will I even be able to keep any?

A close friend told me once that I was particularly good at pretending to be happy even when I wasn’t. Once it hits you that sometimes not even most of the time, just from time to time, you put up a mask it is odd to register. I feel like I do it because it is part of who I am being strong with emotional build up. Recognizing it as someone else sees it as a falsehood or something to be “worked” through is in so many ways upsetting.

To say I have a hard time with particular emotions is foolish and young to me because I know so many have the same problem and to me it is as if I expect it to be a problem like a battle that if won makes you stronger. The battles are tiresome.

I wish so badly to be a mind reader. I think that would make things easier.

Holiday Joy is Starting to Get to Me

Alright, We are two weeks into December and the Holiday season is in full swing. For the first time in my life the Holiday Season joy is really starting to get on my nerves. I don’t now why but apparently everyone, okay so not everyone but all my ex-boyfriends and guy friends have decided to catch the holiday cheer bug or whatever it is that is going around making everyone feel “emotional.”

So far, my most recent ex-boyfriend has chosen to tell me that as soon as I break up with my current boyfriend he will take me back in a flash. Which I could assume would be reassuring if I wasn’t thrilled with my current relationship. As a side note, let it be known that this is the ex-boyfriend that asked me while we were dating if he should continue to date me or if he should date a high school crush that recently showed interest instead…yeah I can really pick them.

Next in line would be the ex-boyfriend before the previously mentioned. This one chose to let me know that he would wait for me; like a until I was ready to go/come back to him sort of thing. He let me know that he would like to marry me to…view previous blog to read about my thoughts on marriage…http://merelyobservation.wordpress.com/2008/10/13/i-do/

Lastly there is my best friend from high school that is fighting in Iraq, I only get to “talk” to him online. He let me know that he deeply regrets never dating me in high school. He let me know that he can’t wait to get back to the states to see me and for some reason he wants to cook for me, which I thought was odd.

Why is it when you are single everyone is okay with just being your friend, but as soon as you are happily dating they just can’t resist you?

I’m thinking this is just a result from the joyful holiday season that will past with the new year. It is up setting to have to turn down guys you consider a good friend because you know that it sucks, being turned down that is. I don’t feel like I’m leading anyone on, because everyone knows about my current relationship status.

Being desired after a high school experience of being undesirable is still weird to me. I suppose I should be flattered but instead it is frustrated having to upset and irritate my friends.

New Chapters

You know we all have friends that we  can’t give up on that we need to hold on to even though holding on is tough.
I hold on even though I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. Some people you have a feeling will bring you pain even though they have brought you happiness. Almost like an attempt at keeping a balance.

When you have a friend that helped you though a tough time but is continually letting you down at what point do you let it go? At what time do you beginning managing your friendships?

You never really understand how much you mean to someone but maybe it is our job to try and help them understand what they mean to us. Levels of friendships are difficult things but the important ones are worth wading through awkward wording to let them know.
Maybe it isn’t so much letting go as fading out. Not fighting to hold on to what you want to be there but allowing yourself to see what is really there.